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Hi there. I'm Tom and I'm from the 'Sunny' UK. I wouldn't go as far as to call myself an artist, though I do dabble about with a pencil and some paper in my free time. I'm also interested in photography, though I am no LaChapelle.

I am a big fan of manga / anime, which does inspire my drawings. I have only really started drawing again after meeting my very special DeviousWitch, whom has inspired me to get more in touch with my creative side. I like all things weird and unusual, which somewhat describes my personality, I wouldn't say I was a 'hipster', though I tend to shy away from anything too mainstream.

Favourite Foods - Sushi, Pasta, Pizza, Fish and Chips, Salad.

Favourite Drinks - Tea, Coffee, Pure Orange Juice, Pure Apple Juice.

Favourite Movies - Spirited Away, My Neighbour Totoro, Nightmare before Christmas, Howls Moving Castle, Strike Witches.

Favourite Music - EDM (Electronic Dance Music).

Favourite Television Shows - Breaking Bad, Big Bang Theory, How I met your Mother, Game of Thrones, Dexter.

Favourite Anime Series - Kiss X Sis, Sakura Trick, Sora no Otoshimono, K-On, Nisekoi, To Love Ru.

Favourite Mangas - Citrus, Hana to Hoshi, Kiss X Sis, Sakura Trick.

Favourite Mangakas - Tito Kubo, Hiro Mashima, Bow Ditama.

Favourite Games - Dead Space 3, Ib, Witch's House, Schuld, Misao, The Crooked Man.

Equipment - Wacom Bamboo Tablet, Photoshop CC, After Effects CC, Camera, Pencils and Paper.

Don't Suicide

Thu Apr 11, 2013, 4:54 PM

Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this.

You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time.

A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don't answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you're asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She's screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that "Mommy is crying and sissy won't wake up."

Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what's going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying.

The next day at school, there's an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular girls, they think of all the things they've said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can't help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex boyfriend, the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you.. He can't handle it. He breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends? They're sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? She's in shock. She can't believe it. She knew what you were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad… Bad enough for you to end it. She can't cry, she can't feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out.

It's a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone's crying, your little brother still doesn't know you killed yourself, he's too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries and doesn't stop for days.

It's two years later. Most of the kids from school to a counselor/therapist at least once a week. Your teachers all quit their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn't know how to love anymore and just sleeps around with girls. Your friends all go into depression. Your best friend? She tried to kill herself. She didn't succeed like you did, but she tried…your brother? He finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night, he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mom got diagnosed with depression and just lays in bed all day.

People care.

You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don't just effect you. They effect everyone. Don't end your life, you have so much to live for. Things can't get better if you give up. I'm here for absolutely anyone that needs to talk, no matter who you are. Even if we've NEVER talked before, I'm here for you.

It hurts. Things do eventually get better. Don't give up.

Suicide by midnightdream2

~This Journal entry was not made by me. I am simply spreading awareness for Suicide Prevention. Please Copy and Paste this to your own Journals, and together we can prevent Suicide.~

Picture from: midnightdream2
CSS from: ClaireJones

Reposted from: Jessica500

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Choco-menta Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank youuuuuuuuuuuu very much!!! I really appreciate it!! :iconarmstrongtighthugplz::iconletmehugyouplz::iconbrohugplz:
HybridCell Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Not a problem. :)
DeviousWitch Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I see you're here ;)
How did you like your pics? :P
HybridCell Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I really enjoyed them..
I just finished getting all yours, waiting for you on Skype when you get home. ;)

HybridCell Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
My god... you dirty girl..
DeviousWitch Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hehehe, i take that as a yes then :lol:
and, well, you know me..;)
How are you today my sweetipie? ^^ (i'm a bit bored here at work btw, too bad i can't go on skype here :P )
HybridCell Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm really good hunii.. Just on my lunch break at the moment. So I decided to come home, get some food and find all those pictures for you.
and how are you sweetie? xx

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CherryInTheSun Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
hello, Tom!!
first of all T H A N K YOU veeeeeeeeeery much for the watch!!! :love:
I really appreciate your support and it truly makes me happy :icondancingchopperplz:
also thank you for the cake, wow!!!
hope you have a nice day :)
HybridCell Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Not a problem buddy. Your artwork is really really amazing...
and as for cake... well, it is a celebration after all.
CherryInTheSun Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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